This past Tuesday we had our first ultrasound. It was amazing, I still can't believe that I got to sit there for half an hour and watch my lil baby move around. The mystery of this baby's life is a little less a mystery! They move, suck their thumb, rub their eyes, roll over, etc. We did find out the gender which really makes things "more real". Slowly, we will tell people. Once we decide to put it on Facebook the whole world will know and its good for me to keep this a secret for a little bit. I love calling them by the little nickname we have for them. I'm already so in love with this child. Last week, I was home alone while Attila was at a meeting in the evening. I brought myself to tears because I wanted to cuddle with my baby more then anything in the world. I always have this fear that something is going to go wrong. I just wanna get this baby here, safe and healthy. But it is a journey of trust; trust that my body can do this and trust that everything will happen in due time, in His time. And trust that I will have the strength to face all that will come our way, no matter what. I am always brought back to such joyful anticipation for this new life!
On a lighter note, I recently came across a website called "Faith and Family: the Magazine and Blog for Daily Catholic Living" (http://www.faithandfamilylive.com/). Its a compilation of many women (and some men) who give insight about daily life as a Catholic person, with mostly advice on marriage, parenting and homemaking. It gets me so excited! This is what I need, little things to do everyday to live more faithfully my vocation. Each day there are blogs with specific themes, and I came across one today (Thursday) that I really like. This one focuses on our "small successes" and says "it’s important for moms to recognize that all the small successes in our days can add up to one big triumph." So they encourage other bloggers to list 3 successes they've had in the past week. I think anyone can do this, whether you're a mom, dad, single person, grandparent, etc. We all need some encouragement, especially when life gets to be a big routine. I really need to do something like this because I can often be so hard on myself. I put up so many expectations for myself, and they are mostly in the house category, like I "don't clean the house faithfully on a weekly basis, so I suck." I look at how I need to mop or do laundry and how often I end up NOT doing those things. What ends up happening is my dear husband will do them and then I get mad at how poorly he did it. It's a vicious cycle, really. So, I am hoping that if I can list some of my small successes, it will motivate me to keep my hopes up and be better at things I would like to improve on. Whatever works, Lord!
Today, I:
1. Cleaned off the snow on my own car in the morning without one ounce of complaining. My hubby is quite sick and I knew that was the last thing he needed in the morning.
2. Cooked Chicken Parmesan, a new recipe for me. I love cooking and haven't done much in the past week; we've resorted to easy, sometimes fast food in our chaotic week. Whole wheat pasta and fresh green beans, yay for healthy!
3. Did the ALL the dishes after dinner and wiped down the kitchen. This is HUGE for me. I loathe doing the dishes and am really good at letting them pile up. It was the least I could do for Attila, who did the dishes before I came home from work. Did I mention he's been sick?! I am making him go to the doctor tomorrow!
There ya go, my small successes. I give them to you, Lord. Your grace was a help!
Awesome! I love the small successes idea. I just came across a similar thought in an ADD magazine that we need to look at the good things we've done rather than focus on our failures. It's hard to be your own boss at home, and little hints like these help so much!
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